Man...I miss my folks...goin' back 2 the city 2moro!!!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
A stunning epiphany
So this will probably be my last "written" post until Thanksgiving, or maybe even Christmas break. I'll probably just stick 2 strictly videos and fashion 4 a little bit...I'm not 2 sure about taking out time 2 express my personal stuff 4 a while...
And Y???
Because I've decided 2 focus on everything that's important... church and school...but everything else like partying every weekend, my women problems, and other women trying 2 make me be unfaithful...its getting blocked out because once upon a time I put effort in those things with nothing 2 show 4 it...idk...my thoughts have been all over the place.
But what made think about really focusing on God and school COMPLETELY was when I dusted off my bible last night lol and found the verse Isaiah 40:31-"but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
After I read that I realized that when stuff bothers me and stresses out that I shouldn't depend on others 2 cope but that I should lean on Him instead and I'll be renewed 2 keep pushing 4 this degree and anything else I seek 2 accomplish.
And Y???
Because I've decided 2 focus on everything that's important... church and school...but everything else like partying every weekend, my women problems, and other women trying 2 make me be unfaithful...its getting blocked out because once upon a time I put effort in those things with nothing 2 show 4 it...idk...my thoughts have been all over the place.
But what made think about really focusing on God and school COMPLETELY was when I dusted off my bible last night lol and found the verse Isaiah 40:31-"but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
After I read that I realized that when stuff bothers me and stresses out that I shouldn't depend on others 2 cope but that I should lean on Him instead and I'll be renewed 2 keep pushing 4 this degree and anything else I seek 2 accomplish.
Friday, November 13, 2009
I've been stressin' bro...
Man these past few days have really gotten 2 me...it's like I scrambling 2 finish the semester out strong and I'm getting overwhelmed by all this work and studying and it's starting 2 show.
Last night I stayed at my girlfriend's room (nothing happened lol) and 4 some reason I was just aggravated by her presence...as I was laying there I actually contemplated just saying "fuck it" and walking out...and the thing was she hadn't even done anything 2 piss me off...I was just mad 4 no reason!!! I was really surprised by it 'cause I've never felt like that, especially towards her.
That's why this morning I made the statement that we should give other space during the week and kick it on the weekends when we have more time and aren't stressing as much about school. I really need 'cause feel like Im'a bite somebodies damn head off!!!...I just need 2 be solitary 4 some days so I can clear my thoughts and handle my business...FIN
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Wiz Khalifa (Feat. Kev tha Hustler)- Hello Kitty (On The Pill)
...The hook is kinda sketchy...but I still fux wit it...
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
2 much time???...and the 512 beckons
Now this is how people see me on campus if not in class...either I'm on the way 2 class or study or do something productive...
...And now that football season is over I'm already feeling like I have 2 much free time on my hands. I know it seem a lil' early 2 feel that but without weights, meetings and practice 2 take up my time it like I don't have anything 2 do. It's done wonders with school because I get on my hmwk and studying as soon as I get outta class at 12 or 1 and by 7pm I'm pretty much done with everything 4 the day....with ample time 2 do what???...(drum roll please) ...NOTHING!!!
IDK...i just gotta get used 2 this schedule and find even more ways 2 be productive with this time I now have...get an extra hr of studying, clean my apt, write some papers early, blog a little more, idk something 2 fill up the empty spaces 'cause I'm so used 2 being a busy body.
Anyways, the 512 is waiting 4 me 2 come back in about a week...good ole' Austin, Texas...I haven't been back since early June and I'm SUPER home sick!!!...and this time time I've made a vow 2 keep my nose clean and stay away from crazy situations...I'm not tryna have any more drama than I already got,no club drama, no 6th street drama, no ex-girlfriend drama, no home-girl-wanna-be-girlfriend drama, ...that shit is 4 someone else, the only 2 women I worry about is my mama and my gal...any other women can kick rocks, unless I grew up with you or we're related lol...
...And now that football season is over I'm already feeling like I have 2 much free time on my hands. I know it seem a lil' early 2 feel that but without weights, meetings and practice 2 take up my time it like I don't have anything 2 do. It's done wonders with school because I get on my hmwk and studying as soon as I get outta class at 12 or 1 and by 7pm I'm pretty much done with everything 4 the day....with ample time 2 do what???...(drum roll please) ...NOTHING!!!
IDK...i just gotta get used 2 this schedule and find even more ways 2 be productive with this time I now have...get an extra hr of studying, clean my apt, write some papers early, blog a little more, idk something 2 fill up the empty spaces 'cause I'm so used 2 being a busy body.
Anyways, the 512 is waiting 4 me 2 come back in about a week...good ole' Austin, Texas...I haven't been back since early June and I'm SUPER home sick!!!...and this time time I've made a vow 2 keep my nose clean and stay away from crazy situations...I'm not tryna have any more drama than I already got,no club drama, no 6th street drama, no ex-girlfriend drama, no home-girl-wanna-be-girlfriend drama, ...that shit is 4 someone else, the only 2 women I worry about is my mama and my gal...any other women can kick rocks, unless I grew up with you or we're related lol...
Friday, November 6, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
What is Zeus up 2 these days???
That's me at the bottom...lookin' real BEASTY...lmao
Anyhow, just wanted 2 update how I've been doing and what I 've been feeling 4 the past few weeks rather than the usual fashion or music post.
Football season is almost over...I kinda got mixed feeling about this 'cause there are pros and cons 2 this. The pros being my body not getting beat on everyday, being able 2 go home and chill with my family and my bros and having more time 2 tend 2 studying and my social life. On the other hand, the cons would be not having a chance 2 get in the playoffs, not playing in a bowl game and unceasing feeling that we could've done so much better this year.
As this season comes 2 a close I'm kind of looking forward 2 next year. A lot my peers have deemed that as my time 2 shine as a senior and try 2 play myself into the NFL draft. The once looming and distant possibility of the NFL has become more and more realistic due 2 the fact that several NFl scouts have come 2 watch film on several people on the team. I was quite surprised when I found out that my name was listed as someone 2 look at next year 4 the NFL.
On another note, me and the chick I talk 2 are taking a break 4 a couple days. Nothings wrong...it's just I think we were up under each other 2 much and we just need some physical distance 4 a sec. We both started getting a lil' snappy towards each other and that's definitely NOT a good thing since nothing went wrong in the 1st place.
After seeing what was going on we both made the decision 2 take step back til Sunday. I'm glad that decision was made because before we probably would've just let things fester. When Sunday comes around we'll be straight. Shout out 2 my "homie, lover, friend"...ily
Anyhow, just wanted 2 update how I've been doing and what I 've been feeling 4 the past few weeks rather than the usual fashion or music post.
Football season is almost over...I kinda got mixed feeling about this 'cause there are pros and cons 2 this. The pros being my body not getting beat on everyday, being able 2 go home and chill with my family and my bros and having more time 2 tend 2 studying and my social life. On the other hand, the cons would be not having a chance 2 get in the playoffs, not playing in a bowl game and unceasing feeling that we could've done so much better this year.
As this season comes 2 a close I'm kind of looking forward 2 next year. A lot my peers have deemed that as my time 2 shine as a senior and try 2 play myself into the NFL draft. The once looming and distant possibility of the NFL has become more and more realistic due 2 the fact that several NFl scouts have come 2 watch film on several people on the team. I was quite surprised when I found out that my name was listed as someone 2 look at next year 4 the NFL.
On another note, me and the chick I talk 2 are taking a break 4 a couple days. Nothings wrong...it's just I think we were up under each other 2 much and we just need some physical distance 4 a sec. We both started getting a lil' snappy towards each other and that's definitely NOT a good thing since nothing went wrong in the 1st place.
After seeing what was going on we both made the decision 2 take step back til Sunday. I'm glad that decision was made because before we probably would've just let things fester. When Sunday comes around we'll be straight. Shout out 2 my "homie, lover, friend"...ily
Monday, November 2, 2009
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