From Like 2 Love

I told y'all I was back on my poetry ish. This is something I started writing over 2 years ago. And even though I don't feel the same as when I first started writing it, I still managed to finish it about a couple days ago, because for the longest it was left incomplete...


How did I get myself in this situation?
To be in like with a girl that loves me...

It was suppose to start off small, simple and slow,
We take it step by step and slowly our relationship will grow.

But instead of taking heed,
It has taken off with great speed,
Growing swift like a bamboo seed,
And now I am just sitting back wondering will this relationship even succeed.

Will we eventually settle down, have a family, and spend the rest of our lives together,
Will we enjoy each others company, each others love, and travel the world together,
Will we like two turtle doves, have eternal love, and end up in our Father's kingdom together?

Or

Will our together be a never,
And our never lasts forever,
And our love is a figment of the imagination,
And it just blows in the breeze like a feather?

Does the forecast of our future project bad weather,
Severe thunderstorms, tornadoes, typhoons,
Earthquakes, hurricanes, and monsoons?

Will there ever be a you and I,
Will things go wrong and I end up loathing you until I die,
And to Hell you go,
And I pray that your soul will forever fry?

Should I have faith in our fate,
Or does our fate need faith?

Will we like the Spanish say end up muy bien,
Or will we just fade into oblivion?

I want to know,
But honestly I just don't know.

I ask myself, Zach, how did this occur,
She really loves you while you only like her,
She wants to marry you but you are not ready to wife her,
She wants to spend the rest of her time with you but you are not ready to life her,
So ask yourself,
Do you really like her?

And why does she love you so much,
And always misses you and can't wait to feel your touch?

And then I start to boost my ego,
And tell myself, well Zach, you are one good looking negro,
And you are caring, honest, and smart,
A pretty nice guy and a real sweetheart!

But am I really,
Or am I kidding myself,
And just being silly?

Maybe some truths were broken,
Maybe I should have thought before I talked and became more soft spoken,
Maybe some boundaries were crossed,
And with the truth I tossed,
And a little fib turned into exaggeration,
And that exaggeration lead to her infatuation,
And now am I just playing her like a Playstation?

How do I really feel,
Are the feelings I feel really real,
Are they pure, are they true, are they genuine?

Is there a such thing as a weak love or a strong like,
Will we roll down a river and end up like Tina and Ike?

Should I cower away and be lead astray, stab her in the back and make her someone else I betray,
Display my dismay and without delay have my way with her like I was at a buffet,
Convey and portray that she was nothing but prey, send her away like she was a bouquet, and then leave her world in disarray,
Or should I stay, remain at bay, and hope our love will grow and will never decay,
Is this all cliché,
Or is it simple and simply child's play?

It's just so much to digest,
Is it all just one huge test,
Is cupid after me, and should I be wearing a vest,
Should I end it and put this relationship to rest,
Or should I venture through the quest,
Prosper through the obstacles,
And show why I am the best?

In this situation I have to be smart,
Do I think with my brain or do I follow my heart?

I've had it broken before and I don't want it to happen again,
But sometimes when you get knocked out the ring you have to climb back in,
Sometimes you have to show that you are made out of more than tin,
Even eventually a lion cub leaves the den,
Because the truth about is quitters never win.

All of this soul searching has got my head hurting,
I need some aspirin, where's the Bayer,
I'm lost, confused, and need guidance,
So I am just going to bow my head and say a prayer....