Man Crush!!!

Though it is very random i feel that is very necessary 2 let the world know that I have a man crush on Keri Lynn Hilson. I always thought she was just a cutie that could sing when she came out with 'Turnin' me On" with Wayne, but after seeing that video "Knock You Down", all I could say was "OOO girl"...lmao

I can't help it she is gorgeous and has exactly the kind of swag I look for in a lady. I know swag is cliche' now but I couldn't think of a better word. Before i digress, i must say that SHE CAN GET IT!!!

Compliment or not???

Random ASU student: Say nigga since U done cut yo hair U look like uh...muthafuckin uh...dat nigga EDDIE MURPHY!!!

Me: Um...ok. Thanks...I guess

(1st thought: Did this nigga actually say that I look like Eddie Murphy. Do me a HUGE favor and kill yourself...twice...lmao)

back on da scene!!!

In times like these it's easy to get knocked off course and feel less than secure about the direction of your future. You've just got 2 get back in touch with your inner person and get ready to take on the world again.

With that being said I am no longer a part of the couple scene. Me and my lady have decided 2 call it quits 4 good. I know a lot of people are happy 2 hear that but whatever. Nobody needs 2 worry about me because I'm not gonna have a melt down like last time, probably because i was mentally preparing myself 4 it. It's still gonna hurt a little because my feelings were true.

But 1 thing she said 2 me that struck a chord was that she saw a lack of ambition. When i heard that i was taken aback. I never grew up knowing what i wanted 2 do in life until recently. Before that I was just a hard working student and an athlete. I'm assuming that my ambition wasn't evident due 2 the fact that i hadn't discovered my niche in life until recently and hadn't really talked about it 2 anybody.

Anyway it's 2 late 4 that because I'm single now. As far relationships go, that shit is gonna be a no go 4 a while. I just don't want 2 deal with the emotional consequences of giving yourself 2 someone and not having it work out in the end. I'm not gonna allow myself 2 get hurt. Of course I'll date around and kick it with a fair share of females casually because that's just how I am, i love being in the company of beautiful women. But, getting serious with somebody is the last thing on my mind. My romantic heart is shut down 4 repairs right now

I don't want people 2 think that she hurt me because that wasn't the case. Whenever you have a relationship that ends of course it's gonna hurt, if you really cared about it. she just did what was best 4 her and I'm glad she did It now than be unhappy in the future. One thing that troubles me though is that I can make someone so unhappy and not even know it; and i take pride on making the ones closest 2 me happy.

With all that being said, i know that I'll bounce from it, and ladies watch out when that happens...lol

Scream your head off!!!

Have you ever had the almost undeniable urge 2 just fuckin' scream on somebody??? Not like yell at somebody; i mean like a Steven Tyler from aerosmith kind of scream like "GET THE FUCK OFF MY CASE!!!"

Well I must say that i feel like that right about now...dueces

'09 Football

Man I know that it's only May and we just got done with spring football but 4 some reason I just have the urge 2 be in a game. In all honesty I feel like '09 is gonna be my breakout season. I know that sounds dumb when I say that because I've been starting since I got here but I think that by the time the season is over my name is gonna be known around that conference; not as an all-state player who has underachieved since he got 2 college but as difference maker, a ball player, someone you can count on 2 make a play when the team really needs it.

I know I have a lot of doubters due 2 the fact that I'm only 6'1" 245 and playing DE. I am playing out of position but who is 2 say that I can't be all-conference, all-region, or even all-american. I'm gonna keep working hard over the summer and hopefully if God sees fit y'all will be seeing my name in the draft after I leave Angelo St. in about 2 years.

Now a 20 year old fly guy!!!

Man my birthday came and went and I feel exactly the same. I don't know, I thought reaching the 2 decade mark would feel different than all the other birthdays.

On the brighter side of things, I'm still thankful that I got another year 2 spend with my family, another year of good health and another year 2 become a better person. Hopefully there are many more come...

Get da fuck outta here!!!

You expect me 2 piss in bucket and drink it...that's a no go. I don't care if it can take the color and flavor out...piss is still piss. LMAO!!!