back on da scene!!!

In times like these it's easy to get knocked off course and feel less than secure about the direction of your future. You've just got 2 get back in touch with your inner person and get ready to take on the world again.

With that being said I am no longer a part of the couple scene. Me and my lady have decided 2 call it quits 4 good. I know a lot of people are happy 2 hear that but whatever. Nobody needs 2 worry about me because I'm not gonna have a melt down like last time, probably because i was mentally preparing myself 4 it. It's still gonna hurt a little because my feelings were true.

But 1 thing she said 2 me that struck a chord was that she saw a lack of ambition. When i heard that i was taken aback. I never grew up knowing what i wanted 2 do in life until recently. Before that I was just a hard working student and an athlete. I'm assuming that my ambition wasn't evident due 2 the fact that i hadn't discovered my niche in life until recently and hadn't really talked about it 2 anybody.

Anyway it's 2 late 4 that because I'm single now. As far relationships go, that shit is gonna be a no go 4 a while. I just don't want 2 deal with the emotional consequences of giving yourself 2 someone and not having it work out in the end. I'm not gonna allow myself 2 get hurt. Of course I'll date around and kick it with a fair share of females casually because that's just how I am, i love being in the company of beautiful women. But, getting serious with somebody is the last thing on my mind. My romantic heart is shut down 4 repairs right now

I don't want people 2 think that she hurt me because that wasn't the case. Whenever you have a relationship that ends of course it's gonna hurt, if you really cared about it. she just did what was best 4 her and I'm glad she did It now than be unhappy in the future. One thing that troubles me though is that I can make someone so unhappy and not even know it; and i take pride on making the ones closest 2 me happy.

With all that being said, i know that I'll bounce from it, and ladies watch out when that happens...lol