It's taken me a while to finally let things go and accept reality. After 2 weeks of attempting 2 get back what I've lost I've realized 1 thing, it's not gonna happen. I been feeling like a big ass cry baby about this. U can't try 2 force somebody 2 be with U if they they don't want 2. These last couple weeks have opened my eyes 2 something, she doesn't want 2 be with me and won't ever again want 2, not a week from now, not a year from now or 2-3 years from now. All the crying, all the sleepless nights, all the tears, all the emotion is not going 2 bring her back.
It's not gonna happen!!!
I'm glad that I've finally realized that because I feel like I've been making myself look stupid. All the texts and calls and questions. I felt like I was still stuck in boyfriend mode. But the thing is that I can't get jealous if I see her with other guys because I no longer have that right 2 feel that way. I can't call her if I'm lonely and in need of a hug because I no longer have that right 2 physical affection. I can't just call her and tell how I feel because she doen't have 2 listen. I no longer a have a right 2 relationship that no longer exists.
I just need 2 know my role as the ex-boyfriend and keep my distance because that's the only way I can stop from hurting because obviously she's gotten over me with no problems and has quickly and easily put me in the past. I know we'll be friends and everything but as far as thinking that she'll 1 day have an epiphany and want 2 be with me again. LOL!!!
Like I said before...it's just not gonna happen...
No I have not put you in the past but what about our talk so now that we are not connect, there is no way we could be together anymore, I probably seem like I have moved on cause I dont not show my feelings openly to you any mmore but on here you talk like I just simply with out and strains dont care about you, We are nkot together because I need to take care of my stuff as well as you take care of yours, I do not feel comfortable with not having myself togather and being in a relationship but if thats how you feel then thats how you feel, I separated myself completely as a girl friend cause I have feelings too you know. ANd I was never going to get over our relationship if I lingered in it. And I am still not over it, but if you really feel this way then I guess....its just not gonna happen
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