A Letter 2 the Former Woman of My Dreams

Dear ####,

I would've liked 2 say this in person or over the phone but I'm writing this due 2 fact that we're not on speaking terms and probably won't be 4 quite a while.

In all honesty, I'm glad that U broke up with me. This may sound odd considering how I was acting afterwards but it's true. At that time my judgement was clouded with emotion and I couldn't really see the bigger picture of our relationship or lack there of. I'm not gonna lie, I held on 2 it 4 way 2 long.

Anyways, the reason I say that I'm happy about it is because it kick started my growth as a person. 2 be honest, at 1st it really wasn't genuine, I was kind of doing it 2 see if I could get U back. Due 2 the fact that it wasn't genuine, I wasn't really growing.

Then, the best thing that could've happened, did. My trip 2 FLA really opened my eyes 2 what I want 2 do, where i want 2 be in life, and how 2 get there. That trip, along with some of with some of your wants 4 me as a man put me in a space where I wanted 2 become a better 4 me instead of somebody else. Not saying that U didn't matter but like U said I needed 2 be a little selfish and worry about "ME" instead of "US" 4 the time being.

That's when my quest 4 self-improvement truly started. Even though it's only been a couple months I'm really liking the person that I see myself becoming. And had U not broken up with me I probably would've been stuck in the same place I was. As a result of that, along with everything else that's going on in my life this summer, I'm starting 2 mature into the man that I'm meant 2 become. I feel my overall attitude is starting 2 change. At 1st, I was just happy 2 be in college, making good grades, and playing football. And your foresight, along with with a combination of my parents advice and other things have made me realize that there is more 2 the world after college is over and I'm really excited about what lies ahead of me when I get "THERE", wherever "THERE" may be.

Don't take this as me not caring about what we had or not cherishing or loving U because at 1 point in time I really did and U know that. It had even gotten 2 point where i had wanted 2 make plans 4 us after college, but that plan wasn't God's plan. After having some time 2 reflect on that with a clear mind I've realized that there are more important things at hand than love right now and we're not meant 2 handle mature love at the tender age of 20.

Who knows, U may or may not read this. We may or may not speak again. But I really want 2 say that I'm thankful 4 the brief time that GOD put U in my life and his decision 2 take U out of it in order 4 him 2 begin working on me while I'm the right place. Believe me, I know that I'm far from through but I'm glad that U helped nudge me in the right direction.

With love,

Zachary Jamal