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Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Random Rant
So everyone that's been an avid reader of my blog is pretty familiar with my women problems lol...and they've seen all my rants about how I'm gonna be single 4ever and not trust anybody with my heart and blah blah blah....
But I think I may come across have somebody that may have changed my mind...now that doesn't mean that I'm gonna be in a relationship soon or anything like that, she's just a cool chick 2 talk 2.
We probably would've met earlier on campus because her look caught my eye but I never said anything out respect 2 my girlfriend at the time. But we had been friends on facebook and hadn't even said 2 words 2 one another 'til me and my then girlfriend broke up...
I find myself being super attracted 2 her...not just because of her looks but her personality and intellect...she really intrigues me in a good a way...and she's hella goofy just like me so that's a plus...and I'm finding it super easy 2 tell her how I feel about things...and I've never done it that early...and it kinda scares me...that's why I'm kinda holding back because I don't want this 2 seem like a rebound because I've only been single 4 like 2 months
IDK...it's just weird...like I said b4 this doesn't mean I'm gonna all booed up or anything like that...but who knows down the road...
All I know is that I'm staying focused on what's important...GOD, then family, then school, then football...and if God sees fit 2 put someone new in my life then it'll happen...if not I'll be just fine...FIN lol
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
Mishka Holiday
Some Holiday drops from my favorite brand...available at certain stores in Austin...hint, hint lol
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
This time it's different...
Where do I start...now the umpteenth time in over a year,me and her have broken up...but this time it's different...It happened 2 weeks ago but I just didn't write about it 4 whatever reason.
Usually when we break up we'll separate 4 few days...and then we when we get back in contact I still can feel those feelings that I had 4 her come back...but this time it's different.
I saw her 2day 4 the 1st time in a couple weeks and it hit me like "Damn I'm actually falling out of love with her." It's kind of a relief but on the other hand it's kind of sad.
I find it as a relief because in reality we were just settling 4 each other because we were both there. I find my self being a relationship kind of guy and I like 2 have someone 2 talk 2 when we're stressing or I need a hug or just hang around in our pj's and watch movies all day. And that was cool but some of the problems that popped up with that was the deal breaker 4 both of us. The awkwardness, the bickering, the paranoia, the crying, the silent treatment, the lack of communication, the lack of time 4 one another...the totality was 2 much 4 us 2 handle. We both did some things that caused problems.
I'm kind of sad though not because I'm losing the relationship but because it feels like I'm losing 1 of my best, if not my best friend at school. The fact is that were we really tight b4 the whole relationship thing came up last year. I think that's why we were successful as a couple in the beginning. But we need 2 grow as individuals instead letting that relationship define us. And I love her 2 death 'cause she's a real sweetheart but in end this is a chapter of our lives that it's time that we both turn the page and I hope that one day we can be friends again...ily my "smoochy" :-)
Usually when we break up we'll separate 4 few days...and then we when we get back in contact I still can feel those feelings that I had 4 her come back...but this time it's different.
I saw her 2day 4 the 1st time in a couple weeks and it hit me like "Damn I'm actually falling out of love with her." It's kind of a relief but on the other hand it's kind of sad.
I find it as a relief because in reality we were just settling 4 each other because we were both there. I find my self being a relationship kind of guy and I like 2 have someone 2 talk 2 when we're stressing or I need a hug or just hang around in our pj's and watch movies all day. And that was cool but some of the problems that popped up with that was the deal breaker 4 both of us. The awkwardness, the bickering, the paranoia, the crying, the silent treatment, the lack of communication, the lack of time 4 one another...the totality was 2 much 4 us 2 handle. We both did some things that caused problems.
I'm kind of sad though not because I'm losing the relationship but because it feels like I'm losing 1 of my best, if not my best friend at school. The fact is that were we really tight b4 the whole relationship thing came up last year. I think that's why we were successful as a couple in the beginning. But we need 2 grow as individuals instead letting that relationship define us. And I love her 2 death 'cause she's a real sweetheart but in end this is a chapter of our lives that it's time that we both turn the page and I hope that one day we can be friends again...ily my "smoochy" :-)
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
No Social Life...lol
So I've officially come 2 the conclusion that school has turned me into 1 of the most boring people I know. Sure, I do study and do homework all day everyday, but even the little free time I do have I don't even use it. At the most, I'll play Madden 4 about 30 minutes or talk on the phone them hit the bed early 2 wake up at 6:30.
U know...maybe I not getting boring I'm just growing up. Some of the desires that I had even last year wouldn't even cross my mind nowadays. Sure I'm get might a tattoo or go out and party and try 2 meet some women every now and then. But most of the time I'd rather be studying or doing something productive. I look at some of my friends that R still in party mode and I think 2 myself..."Nigga U better get urself some goals!!! lol"
It's just a unexplainable feeling 2 watch myself turn into a grown ass man...I'm definitely not there yet because I'm not paying my own bills yet or anything but the motivations and reasons behind my actions R becoming more mature. Sometimes I got 2 my spot and think..."Damn, if I've changed so after 2 1/2 years in college, what kind of man am I gonna be when I graduate, or when I'm 25, or when I'm 30..." Am I still gonna be concerned with women, clothes, tattoos, shoes, and partying like I was at 18, or is there another lane my mind will take me? But who knows, only time will tell...
U know...maybe I not getting boring I'm just growing up. Some of the desires that I had even last year wouldn't even cross my mind nowadays. Sure I'm get might a tattoo or go out and party and try 2 meet some women every now and then. But most of the time I'd rather be studying or doing something productive. I look at some of my friends that R still in party mode and I think 2 myself..."Nigga U better get urself some goals!!! lol"
It's just a unexplainable feeling 2 watch myself turn into a grown ass man...I'm definitely not there yet because I'm not paying my own bills yet or anything but the motivations and reasons behind my actions R becoming more mature. Sometimes I got 2 my spot and think..."Damn, if I've changed so after 2 1/2 years in college, what kind of man am I gonna be when I graduate, or when I'm 25, or when I'm 30..." Am I still gonna be concerned with women, clothes, tattoos, shoes, and partying like I was at 18, or is there another lane my mind will take me? But who knows, only time will tell...
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