Where do I start...now the umpteenth time in over a year,me and her have broken up...but this time it's different...It happened 2 weeks ago but I just didn't write about it 4 whatever reason.
Usually when we break up we'll separate 4 few days...and then we when we get back in contact I still can feel those feelings that I had 4 her come back...but this time it's different.
I saw her 2day 4 the 1st time in a couple weeks and it hit me like "Damn I'm actually falling out of love with her." It's kind of a relief but on the other hand it's kind of sad.
I find it as a relief because in reality we were just settling 4 each other because we were both there. I find my self being a relationship kind of guy and I like 2 have someone 2 talk 2 when we're stressing or I need a hug or just hang around in our pj's and watch movies all day. And that was cool but some of the problems that popped up with that was the deal breaker 4 both of us. The awkwardness, the bickering, the paranoia, the crying, the silent treatment, the lack of communication, the lack of time 4 one another...the totality was 2 much 4 us 2 handle. We both did some things that caused problems.
I'm kind of sad though not because I'm losing the relationship but because it feels like I'm losing 1 of my best, if not my best friend at school. The fact is that were we really tight b4 the whole relationship thing came up last year. I think that's why we were successful as a couple in the beginning. But we need 2 grow as individuals instead letting that relationship define us. And I love her 2 death 'cause she's a real sweetheart but in end this is a chapter of our lives that it's time that we both turn the page and I hope that one day we can be friends again...ily my "smoochy" :-)
Usually when we break up we'll separate 4 few days...and then we when we get back in contact I still can feel those feelings that I had 4 her come back...but this time it's different.
I saw her 2day 4 the 1st time in a couple weeks and it hit me like "Damn I'm actually falling out of love with her." It's kind of a relief but on the other hand it's kind of sad.
I find it as a relief because in reality we were just settling 4 each other because we were both there. I find my self being a relationship kind of guy and I like 2 have someone 2 talk 2 when we're stressing or I need a hug or just hang around in our pj's and watch movies all day. And that was cool but some of the problems that popped up with that was the deal breaker 4 both of us. The awkwardness, the bickering, the paranoia, the crying, the silent treatment, the lack of communication, the lack of time 4 one another...the totality was 2 much 4 us 2 handle. We both did some things that caused problems.
I'm kind of sad though not because I'm losing the relationship but because it feels like I'm losing 1 of my best, if not my best friend at school. The fact is that were we really tight b4 the whole relationship thing came up last year. I think that's why we were successful as a couple in the beginning. But we need 2 grow as individuals instead letting that relationship define us. And I love her 2 death 'cause she's a real sweetheart but in end this is a chapter of our lives that it's time that we both turn the page and I hope that one day we can be friends again...ily my "smoochy" :-)
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