Travis Porter...check out the mixtape..."I'm a Differenter 2"...FIN lmao
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Possible change in plans...
When I finally thought I had peace of mind here comes some more bullshit!
As soon as I'm getting settled in the realm of being solo dolo, my homegirl comes out of the blue with a text that she want 2 see if we can be 2gether now that I'm available...WTF???
FUCK!!!...didn't I say that I want 2 be single...leave me the hell alone...I was so thrown off by it that I couldn't even reply
And 2 make thing worse her and my other homegirl are supposed 2 coming up here 2 visit me this weekend...as a friend. All I was expecting was all of us 2 kick like old times then this pops up. I'm like damn let me act like I'm single 4 a least a few months...I wanna be able 2 have fun and do my thing without worrying about someone or what they think about my actions.
I'm just pissed off right now because I feel like she's not willing 2 give me the space I need 2 see how I can handle being by myself again. I already got enough shit going on between getting out of my old relationship, school, and football 2 deal with something like that.
All I can really say about this situation is that I'm not thinking about ANY serious relationship 'til I graduate!!!
As soon as I'm getting settled in the realm of being solo dolo, my homegirl comes out of the blue with a text that she want 2 see if we can be 2gether now that I'm available...WTF???
FUCK!!!...didn't I say that I want 2 be single...leave me the hell alone...I was so thrown off by it that I couldn't even reply
And 2 make thing worse her and my other homegirl are supposed 2 coming up here 2 visit me this weekend...as a friend. All I was expecting was all of us 2 kick like old times then this pops up. I'm like damn let me act like I'm single 4 a least a few months...I wanna be able 2 have fun and do my thing without worrying about someone or what they think about my actions.
I'm just pissed off right now because I feel like she's not willing 2 give me the space I need 2 see how I can handle being by myself again. I already got enough shit going on between getting out of my old relationship, school, and football 2 deal with something like that.
All I can really say about this situation is that I'm not thinking about ANY serious relationship 'til I graduate!!!
Who is that guy?!?
I've been feeling a lot better over the past few days...My feelings and thoughts aren't all over the place like they where when the semester started...finally adjusted 2 the idea of being single...and I just beasted my Criminal Justice test a second ago...shit took me like 15 minutes...
No more distractions...just school and football...tryna get BIG BUCKS!!!
Well...maybe a little cuddling every now and then but that's it...lmao
No more distractions...just school and football...tryna get BIG BUCKS!!!
Well...maybe a little cuddling every now and then but that's it...lmao
Monday, September 7, 2009
Random Rant
-Nothing in this rant is written with negative intent
- a little banged up after the game on Sat....back, calf and ankle is hurting right now...need a massage
-Need 2 do laundry, SERIOUSLY!!!
-Got 2 home girls coming 2 visit me from back home next weekend, gotta show 'em a good time
-Kind of like a beast on this NCAA 2009 on XBOX 360...lol
-One of my roommates had a whole bunch of gay dudes at my apt...WTF!!!
-Dusting off my little black book...
-My kindness is sometimes taken 4 weakness
-Been eyeing petite chicks lately...that's not really my type though
-Just cleaned my car out of boredom
-Its cold as shit in this damn computer lab!!!
-Needs 2 make more of an effort 2 go 2 church more
-Has had a crush on Melyssa Ford since like the 7th grade
-Just found out Ranch Corn Nuts is the greatest snack known 2 man
-Love chicks wit sexy tats
-Can dance my ass off...no bullshit
-In the cuddling mood...kind of...IDK, it's hard 2 explain
-Realizing that I'm a sexy ass dude when my steez is on point
-Need some contacts, tired of these glasses
-Wondering why my homeboys are worried about my ex's reaction 2 my home girls visiting...that girl is non-worried about me...lol
-has the urge 2 give back shots right now lol
-ready 2 kick it wit my bros after the season ends, even though they be bullshittin' half the time
-has an addiction 4 attention from women...IDK, it's weird but I've always been like that
-been banging nothing but Wiz Khalifa and Wale 4 the last week
-is currently the leading the conference in sacks...BIG BUCKS!!!
-Wondering if I should pull the trigger on my little black book situation or just throw it away
-Tryna find someone who's a beast with that BECKY!!!...lmao
-Still gets jealous occasionally
-'bout 2 get mohawk next week
-Nothing comes between me and my family, and my bros
-has an obsession with Levi 501's, Chucks and fitted white tee's
-SUPER affectionate...I can't help it, I like 2 kiss, hug and cuddle...it just feels good...only with certain people though lol
-feels a little awkward 2 cake with other females but I'm getting used 2 it
-realizing that I'm weird, but I've stopped caring about people's opinions light years ago
-just copped a fresh ass Fedora
-just got a new phone but I cant get any ring tones...SMH
-in the habit of wearing big ass earrings
-lookin' extra slim in my jersey...#34
-in the mood 4 a home cooked meal
-feels like a SUPER LAME 4 not letting go...
- a little banged up after the game on Sat....back, calf and ankle is hurting right now...need a massage
-Need 2 do laundry, SERIOUSLY!!!
-Got 2 home girls coming 2 visit me from back home next weekend, gotta show 'em a good time
-Kind of like a beast on this NCAA 2009 on XBOX 360...lol
-One of my roommates had a whole bunch of gay dudes at my apt...WTF!!!
-Dusting off my little black book...
-My kindness is sometimes taken 4 weakness
-Been eyeing petite chicks lately...that's not really my type though
-Just cleaned my car out of boredom
-Its cold as shit in this damn computer lab!!!
-Needs 2 make more of an effort 2 go 2 church more
-Has had a crush on Melyssa Ford since like the 7th grade
-Just found out Ranch Corn Nuts is the greatest snack known 2 man
-Love chicks wit sexy tats
-Can dance my ass off...no bullshit
-In the cuddling mood...kind of...IDK, it's hard 2 explain
-Realizing that I'm a sexy ass dude when my steez is on point
-Need some contacts, tired of these glasses
-Wondering why my homeboys are worried about my ex's reaction 2 my home girls visiting...that girl is non-worried about me...lol
-has the urge 2 give back shots right now lol
-ready 2 kick it wit my bros after the season ends, even though they be bullshittin' half the time
-has an addiction 4 attention from women...IDK, it's weird but I've always been like that
-been banging nothing but Wiz Khalifa and Wale 4 the last week
-is currently the leading the conference in sacks...BIG BUCKS!!!
-Wondering if I should pull the trigger on my little black book situation or just throw it away
-Tryna find someone who's a beast with that BECKY!!!...lmao
-Still gets jealous occasionally
-'bout 2 get mohawk next week
-Nothing comes between me and my family, and my bros
-has an obsession with Levi 501's, Chucks and fitted white tee's
-SUPER affectionate...I can't help it, I like 2 kiss, hug and cuddle...it just feels good...only with certain people though lol
-feels a little awkward 2 cake with other females but I'm getting used 2 it
-realizing that I'm weird, but I've stopped caring about people's opinions light years ago
-just copped a fresh ass Fedora
-just got a new phone but I cant get any ring tones...SMH
-in the habit of wearing big ass earrings
-lookin' extra slim in my jersey...#34
-in the mood 4 a home cooked meal
-feels like a SUPER LAME 4 not letting go...
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Friday, September 4, 2009
My Secret Spot
Whenever things are bothering and I start 2 feel overwhelmed I go 2 my secret spot and just think...I've never told anybody where it's at and I doubt if I ever will...the isolation and solidarity of this place gives a chance 2 take a step away from the hustle and bustle of the life of a 20 year old fly guy/college athlete and analyze what's going on in the complicated maze that is my mind.
Why am I speaking of this place that sacred 2 me and my sanity?!?
Because I felt that the last 2 weeks have warranted a visit last night...and you know what I found out while I was there???
THAT I'M A BIG ASS COMPLAINER!!!
Seriously though, I really blew this whole ordeal WAY outta proportion because in the grand scheme of things my women problems are not really that important.
Besides that one situation my life is pretty damn good...I'm a young, successful, educated, smart and athletic black man...with a wonderful family and my bros 2 support me. What more can i ask for???
Just because my romantic life isn't where I want it 2 be doesn't meant that it's the end of the world
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Damn!
Let me start off by saying that it is disheartening 2 see that what I write on here can really have such a negative impact on someones feelings or emotions. 4 the most part I have good intentions 4 this blog but I had a slip up last week and what was supposed 2 be a quick venting session ended up turning into a mean-spirited and hurtful villainization of someones character. Now I'm currently dealing with repercussions of what was written though I no longer feel the same way I did at the time that I wrote it. I can honestly say that was only post I regret writing.
I can't make any excuses about it. All that I can do is bite the bullet and say that it was written out of week long build up of anger and I shouldn't have put it on here and I'm truly sorry 4 the hurt that it may have caused and still wish that things could stay the way they were just yesterday but my actions have caused that 2 change. The fact I'm personally responisible 4 someone's hurt is what makes it that much harder 2 deal with.
IDK...had it never been written things would a lot different right now...
I can't make any excuses about it. All that I can do is bite the bullet and say that it was written out of week long build up of anger and I shouldn't have put it on here and I'm truly sorry 4 the hurt that it may have caused and still wish that things could stay the way they were just yesterday but my actions have caused that 2 change. The fact I'm personally responisible 4 someone's hurt is what makes it that much harder 2 deal with.
IDK...had it never been written things would a lot different right now...
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