Dog Days of Summer

Man, I'll be honest, this has been one of the roughest summers I've been through. Not even physically, just mentally and emotionally. The breakup and the my grandpa passing took a lot outta me, I'm not gonna lie. Dealing with the combination was pretty tough, but its getting better. When you get to the pointt where you've picked picked an engagement ring, and started a payment plans,  and already planned out the proposal at graduation you don't just immediately get over that in a couple days. And I was at that point, had been making payments on it since April, that's why I was so broke at the beginning of the summer lol. Now had the break up happened after I finished all that, somebody would've had to call the laws lol. Realistically though, who meets their future spouse at 18? And it last forever? Nobody, that's who! lol I still have my days ,but they're coming less often. I'm just coping by staying busy. I've been burying myself in school, talking to my friends, working out, working, and even maintaining the bible study I've been trying lately. All of that makes it a lot easier to cope, its just a daily process though. I'm sure there will be some more times where I miss what I once had, but in the end you just gotta get over it.

What happened to me, happens to people all over the world every day. You just gotta pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and keep it moving. One day I'll be able to look back on this time in my life and realize that I was made a better man, person, father, husband and friend because of this. I say that because I've learned to appreciate what I have and no matter anybody says or what promises and plans are made, it can always be taken away. I don't know man, maybe if the two situations hadn't occurred around the same time maybe it would've been easier to cope with. I don't know, I'm just speculating right now. When I really look at the grand scheme of things, I really got it made, I've been blessed with no major worries. My situation is better than a majority of people right now; I'm a college-educated,  intrinsically-driven, goofy, athletic, articulate, smart man with a bright future ahead of me. It's plenty of people that would switch places with me right now. But, yeah man, like I said before, I'm just taking it day by day and slowly but surely its becoming less and less harder to deal with...