My Pillar

Lately it seems like only thing that has been keeping my sane is my bible bro! I swear, I feel so bad all day, and the only thing that makes me halfway decent is when I read my bible man. I really don't know what I would be doing right now, if it wasn't for that. This feeling is unlike any other I've ever had. I'm not saying I've never felt bad before, but at times it feels like its penetrating my thoughts and how I function and it's NOT going away. Like a huge cloud is hanging over me. I even went by the clinic and was diagnosed with mild depression....MILD DEPRESSION! I'd hate to find out what severe depression is like! They rtied to give me so medication, nah bro I'm not tryna be drugged up 24/7 or walking around like a zombie w/ no feelings. I try to cope with my feelings by being positive about who I am and how good of a situation that I'm blessed to be in, and while that's worked in the past and all that may be true, it's not working this time around. And the only thing that gives me any kind of relief is when I go through one of my lessons. I don't mean to come off like a habitual complainer but shit that just how I feel right now.It sucks to feel this way, 'cause I can't turn it off, if I could've I would've done it 2 months ago. I'm only lesson 6 or 7, but how I feel I might be on lesson 100 by tomorrow.